well its been a long year....

I started this blog almost a year ago. maybe a little over. I havent really written in it because well i forget about it. What is it with blogger i always forget about? i check facebook and xanga regularly. this and myspace well i know why myspace got phased out...dear iiwu did that with it being blocked for so long i forget i'm allowed to access it...anyway everyone converted to facebook anyway.

lets see whats new.
let me start by saying life has been turned upsided down many times. I wanna say its back to right side up but i know better then to say that....

lets see.
Nov was my car accident. I'm still recovering from. Soo. you do the math.
That effected my grades because i really couldnt focus in class because sitting was so painful. Same is true of sitting at my desk doing homework and writting papers. Had i know this the month before my new computer wouldnt have been a desktop...
anyway.
grandma got sick and was called to drive out and drop what i was doing.
grandma got better and went into a nursing home
went to chicago
gramdma got better came home
left for Spring Break.
3 days into break grandma died
week after the funeral Paul came home from jail finally.
3 days later grandpa went into the hospital
2 weeks later he died.
depression went from slightly managable with Malone refusing to prescribe my refill of my meds to well...you can only guess.
stress levels went through the roof between family, back pain school and work. my uclers also came back from freshman year and came back majorly. This made it so not only was i in pain from my back sitting in class that i had that pain and the feeling i woudl vomit most of the time..
That being said i failed out of malone bc i had a moderatly bad semesters then a horrible semester.
Grace was giving by one professor and non by the board so i'm staying out of malone
anyway
took my internship back at the chapel bc i found my credits from iwu didnt transfer. Ends up getting kicked out lead to another summer interning with out credit
internship was odd this summer.
i was doing better with my back untill camp
that flared up and ive been in and out of doctors and ER's since.
i have been unproductive all summer i feel
Scott has noticed and has tried to be ncie about it

anyway.
i did meet up with an old friend from highschool at the end of the semester...he would drive down and see me a owrk or just hang out in my dorm untill he was kicked out.
Obviously we started dating
its been great.
since i'm kicked out school i have no where to really go so we discussed it for a few months and i desided to move with him. he was finishing up BWM school and would have to be moving. after 2 months of job serching he just got one
We are looking at apartments on Monday in Fort Wayne


not nearly how i would have planned things going but i'm just giving up on planning and seeing where life is taking me.