video...

this is the skit that they did for us in Wallace. its the "original" i believe... youtube is full of others...but i think this is one that started them.

...moving on.

i got to pray and talk with a girl in the youth group on wednesday. Which was astonding. Pastor Jamie and everyone did such a great job. the southern (for lack of better term) style of yelling out loud during services is still strange to me. I enjoy the concept just still makes me feel awkward and out of place. Jacob looked at me during the sermon and said...I'm kinda werided out by this! it made me smile. he listened though. I realluy didnt' think the service was impacting them. I was afraid of turning around and finding a few of them sleeping...since i ended up getting the front most seat (minus Jacob to my right)...i finally looked back. I seen them all in little huddles....crying...more sobbing then crying. I immeditatly got up and joined them. Hoping to give some kind of comfort or something. There had just been an alter call....Allison was shaking even mroe when i started to hug her but she hugged back....then she looked up at the front...then up at me and asked "is that all the people that got saved!?" I nodded. she started balling more then before. I couldn't believe how moved they were....it was sooo amazing...at 13 they were crying b/c they were seeing people get saved. i could see how their hearts weeped for those that didn't knwo Christ. It was astonding.

an hour or so later as things winded down...and i still had 50 crying preteen-teenagers. (dont get me wrong iwas defently moved too...but how can me and Farah help all of them...we had a sick kid and a few leaders were back there...and 2 other went to take Woody home early since he didnthave a ride and had somewhere to be) Some reason i directed myself to LiAnne. well the Lord directed me. I just didnt quite know it yet. we were meet by paige and sarah...who stayed and cried. then wondered off to cry together and attempt to talk... Lianne then looked at me and i asked her if she wanted to talk...these are always awkward moments...i feel lik ei should know what to say...when realy i ahve no idea. she looked at me and shared baout her family in russia. how she missed them, how happy she was to come here, how blesses she was...then her burden...that her sister doesn't know Christ...the bad discussions her sisters made...how they arent in contact...how her sisters kids are in orphanges...how certian reltives have died...how shes afraid they won't accept Christ. they won't know the Lord. By this point we were both back to the sobbing and i just held her and told her my story, of danny. how i got angry. how i forgot that God had everything in his control. How i was angry how i blamed God. How i felt guilty of what i was studying when i couldnt bring my own cousin to Jesus....then how at the funeral. i got news. the most amazing news. that Danny had accepted Christ...he hadbeen seeking, he was baptized.

i just felt like i neededto write that down. I felt like God really spoke through me and also to me and let me know how everything is gonna be okay...

me agian

last night was the Jc fair. idk why its called that so don't ask me. but it was fun. We had a decent turn out. 5 girls. the boys havent been showing up. Then again me and Farah know the girls a lot better hten the boys. I felt bad for Josh on that one though. Dylan came too. which was fun. Idk what was up with me and Farah but we were nuts last night. It was a lot of fun. The girls were great. we ran around the park afterwards...fairs are EXPENSIVE. We chased the ducks. (always a good time. did our train on the tube slide...really have no idea how we did that last year b/c that slide is SUPER tiny compared to other tube slides. and of coarse played tag. After that we went back to the church and turned the music on and the mic and danced and sang along till there parents came. Dylan left to take the dogs out, he was dog sitting for. After a while i left to go hang out with him and watch the office. Farah called at 11:00 asking how to turn on the monitors...i guess mandy and sidney were still there waiting for there dad's to get out of the mission board meeting!

The mission trip is coming up.

I'm psyched. farah is too. Gina was fun to have on the trip last year...but i know she stressed farah out. with having to keep an eye on her and eat with her and stuff. it shouldn't be as nearly as stressfull esp. on her this year. Gina's make progress and its exciting. I wish she was on the trip b/c even though it was stressful...it was great that she was there. this year we have our new issue...dating. last year only zach was dating sarah and she wasn't on the trip...and he didnt have a cell. This year sarah is on the trip, shes gonna have her cell, and i'll prolly have to take it from her. any other couple got together this week..both going on the trip...and nate and paige of COARSE are on the same site and still are having a heated breakup. Yay! jk. i think its funny how 8th graders think they are in real relationships. I mean to them they are...but watching them is entertianing...and stressful. cause even though they wont care years from now...they still get themselves hurt. they don't believe me and Farah we say its not worth dating now. ha. Its still not worth it at 21! lol

thats it for now; I'm not really in a ranty mood. Other then my check was wrong and hasn't been corrected and my credit card payment is due while we are on the trip.

ick. i'm still paying off the damage I did last summer...when my payments werent going through.

oaky..if i dont put a title. it doesnt post.

well..
interning started.
everything at the church as been going great...

im really really mad i'm not getting credit at iwu for it.
like want to drive to marion and scream at the top of my lungs.
i'm sick of iwu.
i left on good terms
and now i'm pissed!
not only was i charged for housing for a term i didnt do...i got charged for "improper check out"
i'm pissed.
i made sure that the internship was repeatable.
i NEVER said a word to scott about doing another internship till i was sure.
i had Russ check
i nagged him about it
he checked with dave smith.
after i set up the internship I double checked with him and WATCHED him walk to dave smiths office and double check with him.
the reason being...i learned a lot form my internship.
BUT. i'm behind in school...
i have to get through school before i can do anything more...
I made sure. i double check. i nagged and made SURE i could get college credit for my internship.
well.
i can't
well...
they won't let me
i dont ahve enough practical knowledge.
not to mention.
i feel like its b/c i transfered.
i really do.
they just dont want to let me do it.
and i was careful about not committing to this untill i KNEW i could get credit.
dont get me wrong im glad i did the internship
but 200 dollars a week....i wanna say i could make that on a weekend serving shift or close to it! image that full time.
i mean the experince i get from the chapel is priceless and i love it.
but...the credit is what i needed to justify it.
i have 72 credit left at Malone...well 69 once i get my theo 2 class transfered (my transcript wasnt complete when they sent it last time) i SHOULD have had 62-64 with the youth internship. that is doable in 2 years. 2 years of more classes then i've ever been able to handle.

GRRR. i need to mak e an appointment with dr. its already light out. and i've nto been to bed.
i need to get back on my antidepressants. that iwll help with this sleep junk.
and not having cats...that wake me up....

blarg

I'm created this bc well all my "normal" blogs have been found my jr highers. which is fine. but i noticed this isnt "cool" so i'm gonna hope that i can go back to blogging...with out feeling the need to hide things from kids. not that i have much i say i would really be "embarassed" by its just...i spend 40 hours a week with them...and well they don't need to know EVERYTHING...i vent on the internet...and i have to watch my facebook, myspace, aim away messages, xanga and possibly live journal.

soo ya