hmm time for a new appoarch

I believe compared to the next person, i'm very accepting, very loving and very trusting. I mean obviously there is a limit to all that. but i think i'm more so then the average person. i also always used to say...mess with my friend...and well kinda all bets are off. I hate people messing with my friends. its kinda like my "unforgivable" not saying i wont forgive you...its more like i wont forget it. i find it easier when people hurt me. esp a few of my friends. i never will forget people that have hurt them. Not really in a Physical sense...more emotionally. esp. boys/girls (obviously if its a girl...i have a tendacy to hate all guys that hurt her...or a guy friend...any girl that messes with him) I realized how much i hold these grudges this past week. When news of a girl that know didnt really treat my friend like that anymore..and they had made up...i still seen her as well what  she did to him. i couldnt believe it. untill she died. ive realize how much i really didnt like her. When really we had a lot in common and should NEVER rejoice in others short comings. I feel horible. i almost want call chlebys ex and apologize but hell never understand. he holds the same philosphy. But does it matter what he thinks? most of my friends ahve told me my anger was right and i shouldnt feel bad for not liking her. but i do. blah. thats just my thoughts.

i think love is my new appoarch. Idk how this will play out b/c i hate seeing people hurt esp. people i really care about. but i'll figure that out as time goes.